Dani

Yesterday while sitting in class I was listening to the professor tell a story about about a time that he went and visited an eldry home and met a women. He met with this women everytime that he went up to the home and each time she asked him when are you going to become a presbyterian. He never really answered her until one night, a week before she was about to pass, he went in and talked to her again. Again she asked, “When are you going to become a presybrtian?” This time he responded with ” Ya know I think I’m going to be a Christian.” With this response she was not sure how to respond and he was afariad to get some of that presbyterian meanness upon him but instead she began to smile and everything was fine. After that akward silence for 10 senconds he looked at her and asked her if he could ask her a question. She said of course and he began to ask, ” How are you and Jesus?” Her response, ” Were not.” He was shocked this was a woman that was married to a man for over 50 years and who have been involved with a church for longer then that, that were always involved and helping others to get involved and to hear that they were not doing good he was shocked.” A week later she passed away but because of that one question her and Jesus became and now they are always with eachother. 

When I sat there and listened to this story I couldn’t help but think of myself. First of all in the way that I am a scared little girl when it comes to asking people about Christ and how their relationship is going and even just going to visit eldery in the nursing home, something so simply but so affective. Why, why cant I get myself to do something that is so out of my comfort zone. A man that gave his life for me, who was battered and brused for my transgressions, who is the king of kings and the lord of lords and I cant simply ask people how their relationship is makes me sick. Lord please forgive me for that building block in my life I pray that you can get rid of it and I can become open and honest about my relationship with Christ. In your name!

The second thing that I thought about myself was that if I was asked that question I wouldnt be able to answer anything else but the same thing that she responded with. I hate it but its true. When I heard this last night that is all I could think about why and how could my answer be different. I dont want to be that one girl that everyone thinks is doing okay and is such a strong leader when I am not. Dont get my wrong I have a relationship with Christ but I have been lazy. When i think about having a relationship with someone I think about constintly being there for that person, having conversations with that person, loving that person, making time for them and I dont do that with Jesus or really anybody right now. I am not sure who I have become but I hate myself right now. I hate the person I am becoming. I am changing…TODAY!! I cant stand myself. I want to be able to show people who I am in Christ and I want to be able to when asked the question how are me and jesus look at those people and say amazing and ask them the same question in return. My challenge to you guys is to think about that question. Would you be able to respond with yes were amazing or were doing great or would it be the way myself and this lady answered it. You are a child of God, he loves you and me and he wants us to be wrapped up in him. Let us do that today!

So…how are you and Jesus?